September 30, 2020

Training

“You’ll be working at least seventeen hours on Election Day,” he said. “So bring a sandwich.”

September 29, 2020

Shame

Tonight’s first presidential debate was a fitting spectacle for a degraded nation.

September 28, 2020

Dots

If I’ve gleaned anything from keeping this glum journal throughout this year, it’s that I keep returning to the language of grief.

September 27, 2020

Converge

It’s my mind that kills me, the constant looking at my watch until I remember how to forget about time.

September 26, 2020

Lull

But tonight there’s light rain, our windows are open to the city’s hum, and there’s something dark and slow on the radio.

September 25, 2020

Homeward

We’re leaving the Ohioan wilderness behind, night-driving back to New York.

September 24, 2020

Birds

Standing in a superstore parking lot this evening, I watched some geese fly south, and I remembered my parents’ relationship with birds.

September 23, 2020

Shatter

Three moments in America today that reach beyond my ability with words, striking only the rudimentary language of grief.

September 22, 2020

Equinox

We’re standing on the verge of an uneasy fall, unsure of just how high the curve will go.

September 21, 2020

Plaza

A modern marvel where you can eat fast food on top of eight lanes of freeway traffic.

September 20, 2020

Closer

Last bonfire before we return to the city.

September 19, 2020

Spectrum

There’s a problem with modern grief, a rupture that cannot be filled with squishy words like mindfulness and acceptance.